I’m addicted to the high.
It’s not just that I have an addictive personality.
It’s that my world is of extreme highs and lows.
For me to have a moment of happiness, I need my fix.
That short drug fueled moment is what you normal people call normality.
My normality is depression.It is the inability to understand or recognize any pleasures in life, the point of waking up everyday, the mundanity of relationships, social greetings, Christmas presents, birthday cards..and the rest of it.
Without a fix, I can’t escape the low.
Nowadays, when I get “high” it just makes me feel normal again.
I am an addict that wants to feel normal without getting high, just like you.
Welcome to my world of highs and lows.